Saturday, December 22, 2012

Abhimaan (1973)


            Today’s post is dedicated to Abhimaan, the oldest movie that I have documented on this little endeavor of love and respect. The movie comes from Hrishikesh Mukherjee in 1973, starring (obviously) a very young Amitabh Bachchan, and even younger Jaya Bhaduri, later to become Mrs. Bachchan.
            The movie is the Desi version of A Star is Born but, as always, the Desi version outshined the Hollywood version. It centers on the character of Subir “Beetu” Kumar, India’s most famous and beloved singer, as personified by Amitji, and his wife, Uma Kumar (Mrs. Bachchan) who begins to gain more fame and recognition as a singer then her husband. The movie is a wonderful mixture of extremely heart-melting romantic moments between the future Bachchan couple, woven with magical songs performed by Lata Mangeshkar, Kishore Kumar and Mohammed Rafi, and a story line that accomplishes what it sets out to.
            I think this movie is incredibly well written, especially because the message it sets out to communicate is executed beautifully. Fortune and glory, no matter how hard we seek them out, no matter how hard we try to gain notoriety, and no matter how important they may seem to us, cannot compare in what our family, what our love, is capable of giving us. It really makes the viewer think about what we hold dear, and how ignorant we are of what we really want.
            One of the most profound lessons that I’ve learned from this movie, is that pride, hubris, is one of the worst and most disabling traits a person can have. Subir’s refusal to admit or submit to Uma, to communicate with her that he is apologetic over his actions, his words and his inability to acknowledge her fame, shows the evil of pride.
            Jaya Bhaduri, cum Bachchan, is beautiful in this movie. She embodies the character she plays so wonderfully, becomes the simple, sweet, loving girl that Uma is. And Amitji delivers a performance, able to communicate his characters faults with the style and grace that would lead to his own fame and fortune.
Nothing but nice things to say about this one! But I must add, that when I was looking through reviews of this movie, the correlations and parallels that are drawn between the Kumars of the movie and the Bachchan’s of real life.
            So I pose this question of you today, what gives us the right, or the false notion, that we are allowed to draw any conclusions about anybody! Especially celebrities or film actors whom we have never met and will never meet. I call this foul play and praise Mr. and Mrs. Bachchan for their life together, they are an exemplary and extraordinary sample of all that can go right with a marriage, and with the intertwining of two lives.
            I end this post by sending prayers and wishes for a long and happy life for the beautiful couple that so sweetly intertwines together on the movie screen.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Ram Gopal Varma's Ki Aag (2007)


            I can finally start to blog about Amitabh Bachchan ji’s movies that I have watched. Since last count, I am down to seventy something movies left.
            Last night, I managed to talk myself into watching Ram Gopa Varma’s Ki Aag or sometimes RGV’s Indian Flames from 2007, or as I call it for simplicity’s sake New Sholay. And I was very surprised by the movie, and how much I enjoyed it!
            Going into this movie, I had the same dread I have with the movies made by the Big B in the 1990’s. I had seen an interview on Coffee with Karan (Johar), which featured Jaya Bachchan and Hema Malini where they discussed how they did not like the idea of Sholay remake. They were both adamant that a remake was a terrible idea, and I have read countless articles where various filmmakers condemned Ram Gopol Varma and even Amitabh Bachchan for daring to even suggest a remake of the classic curry western. The movie has a 1.8 rating on IMDB, and one star on Netflix streaming, where I ended up watching it. I even saw that it was called blasphemous and is one of the first Indian movies to make it to the IMDB 100 lowest rated movies. 
            I do not like remakes. I am, in fact, very much angry with the industry for remaking Amitji’s movies. Seeing advertisements for Don 2, Agneepath, and for the love of God, now Zangeer? The suggestion here is that the movie originals were not good enough and I do not believe that. But with this movie, I have seen the difference between a “remake” and “interpretation”, and I found myself like Ki Aag when I stopped thinking of it as a remake, but as Ram Gopal Varma’s interpretation of the classic movie.
            I am a huge fan of RGV, and the movies he creates with Amitji, have always produced movies that I love, movies that are interesting and creative.
            So, let’s get to Ki Aag!
            The movie stars Ajay Devgn as Heero (a new spin on Dharamendra’s Veeru) and Raj (the take on Amitji’s unforgettable Jai), and Amitabh Bachchan himself stared as the bandit, Baban Singh, his take on Gabbar Singh, immortalized by Amjad Khan. With Amitji playing the villain, you cannot go wrong.
            I was tweeting the entire time I was watching the movie, to record my reaction to the movie and found myself screaming half the time about how absolutely terrible Baban is. With mismatched color eyes and a scar that runs across his nose, I can very honestly say that it has been a long time since a character in a movie terrified as much as Baban.
            Perhaps it was because I am used to seeing Amitji in roles where he simply blurs the line between good and evil. Instead of living in the gray zones in this movie however, Mr. Bachchan in this movie is steadily planted in the black end of the spectrum. Pure evil.
            What I love about this movie, specifically, aside from being terrified out of my mind, is that Baban is actually given a reason for being violent, and having such a personal hatred for the Thakur. This background that Gabar was missing always bothered me because there was never justification for his actions, Gabar was just crazy. Baban is crazy, but he has his reasons.
            Again, Baban is crazy.
            And this movie, independent of its similarity to Sholay, is a movie that should be a given a chance. 

Watch this movie, just to see Amitji in a new, interesting, and terrifying light. And watch this movie, so you can see why I was tweeting what I was tweeting….Seriously, the Kabhi Kabhie reference made me scream. 
Here are my tweets:



Sunday, October 14, 2012

Major Saab (1998)


I am writing this with a sinking, guilty feeling in my stomach.
But it must be written.
When I started this little project, to basically keep track of what I have watched in my endeavor to “watch every Bachchan movie”, was to always be honest about what I thought about the innumerable movies I’ve watched. And since my recent discovery of the treasure trove that is the Netflix DVD library, it’s become easier for me to find movies that I have trouble finding.
I also realize that there is .001% chance that Mr. Bachchan, out of pure curiosity may visit and skim through this blog every now and then so I feel extra guilty and pensive about writing a critique that’s not exactly…nice.
But, as stated through my 70 reasons for loving Big B…I have learned to be honest.
And now I must be honest. 
So, with another apology, here is what I thought of the movie from 1998, directed by Tinnu Anand and Varinder Raj Anand, Major Saab
I think the same thing went wrong with Major Saab as it did with Mard. The thought was beautiful, the idea, the passion with which the idea was conceived was superb but…there were problems in execution.
In attempting to describe to a friend why Major Saab made me want to gouge my eyes out with a spoon, the only suitable explanation was that the writer forgot to tell me why I had to give a crap about what was happening.  The entire movie seems to be a series of incomplete thoughts that, in the end, seriously fail in convincing me that using army and military resources to get your cadet to marry a girl is not a good idea. If, perhaps, the relationships were better established or made more sense, the change in Major Jasbir Sing Rana was so drastic…Ah!
And again, as in Mard, Amitji’s leading lady wasn’t all there. Beautiful and sweet to be sure, but lacked a little something that would have set her at par with her husband or her two co-stars. Ajay Devgn found firm footing throughout the movie to be sure and, as always, Amitji delivered a very convincing performance as a very stern major with a soft side for his men. But, as stated above, the story felt disjointed.
The only positive part of the movie was the song Sona Sona and the banghra that ensues but other than that, all my respect to the cast and crew of this movie but…not a movie that is worth seeking and watching.
I PROMISE the next review I have time to write will be on a movie I adore! Lal Badshah and Mrityudata.
Until then, 
IS 


Sunday, October 7, 2012

Happy Birthday to Mr. Bachchan....here's Seventy For Seventy for Mr. Bachchan's birhday


What is written below is the culmination of several months work, it has been subject to editing, changes and endless scrutinizing and has become a route to self-discovery. What is written below was dreamt with the hopes that it will be read by You, Mr. Bachchan, and perhaps will help accomplish the goal which I shall convey as I write this.

We love Amitabh Bachchan because…
1.      Through his movies, starting with Zangeer in particular, he taught us what doing the right thing meant, and how to be honorable to not only your family, your traditions and your community, but also how to find honor within yourself.
2.      His booming voice, when delivering a dialogue like the famous one in the temple in Deewar never fail to send chills down our spine, making the character more palpable for the viewer.
3.      He gave us a character like Vijay Varma, who is so completely torn in a world where black and white way of thinking cannot and does not exist, yet in this world filled with so many shades of gray, Vijay shows us where we should lead ourselves.
4.       Songs like “mere angne main” or “come on- come on” will happily get stuck in anyone’s head for a long time, but the singer will never complain of their internal jukebox’s song selection.
5.      His song “rozana” never fails to make me stop and find myself weeping at the heartache that I hear coming through the speakers of the car as I listen to it on my way to or from work/school, or through my headphones.
6.      He, for the past 28 years, has welcomed his Sunday well-wishers with a smile and appreciation for their love, support and adoration, when other actors would have shunned such an outpouring of emotion from their fans.
7.      He gave us characters like Padshah Khan from Khuda Gawah, and having their inner strength become examples for the viewer, and for embodying a Patthan who honors their promises with all their might, no matter what the cost.
8.      Showing us his version of the Godfather in Sarkar and reminding each and every one of us the diversity that lies within his abilities as in actor, and making his Subhash Nagre an embodiment of pure power.
9.      Having gone through an experience and an illness after the infamous Coolie accident, and coming out the other side stronger and better for having gone through the experience.
10.  Mr. Bachchan practices what he preaches. And by this I mean that through his blog, he always tells his beloved Ef to always view obstacles and trials and hardships as a learning experience. He has been practicing this very principle for the past few decades.
11.  He is a pillar of strength, an endless well of experience, knowledge, and an almost unholy strength to persevere that, to fans like myself, are an ideal to live up to. His willingness to teach these values to those who listen to him, make him that much more admirable.
12.  When experiencing a personal hardship, fans can turn to his movies like Bade Miyan, Chote Miyan and lose themselves in the colorful music and story of the movie and not worry about the dark reality that surrounds them once the movie is over.
13.  He engrosses each and every single of his viewers so completely into his characters: he truly brings something for everyone. Physical strength for the young men, mental strength of the wizened men. Expressions of pure adoration for his leading lady that creates swooning figures from females of all ages, and touches every woman’s heart with his sincerity.
14.  He played Vicky in Sharaabi, a character I treasure with all my heart for the ache in his heart and the gold that pours from his pocket as his heart pumps goodness. Vicky stands as an ideal in so many ways I think, that society as a whole should model and mold itself to understand why Vickybabu’s lesson is so significant.
15.   Not only do Mr. Bachchan’s characters resonate through different cultures, but he himself blurs cultural lines and allows non-Indians to come to love and respect him as much as any native Indian. I discount my own story, being from the Middle Eastern heritage and having more exposure to Hindi movies. But I bring forth my best friends story: an American born and raised yet he exudes the same excitement at the prospect of Sholay in 3D as any other Amitabh Bachchan fan.
16.  Through this enthusiasm he has created in me, and this desire to see and absorb all his 189 movies (according to IMDB), I have started to learn Hindi, and have started to progressively get better at watching a movie without English subtitles being needed desperately.
17.   An Assyrian-Catholic born in Iran, into a regime who could and would not accept my family’s religion, and coming to regard America as my home, through Amitabh Bachchan’s movie, and the influence through his movies, I found myself slowly begin to make amends with the country and a part of the world I was born into, but so often resented. For this reconciliation between my present self and my past, this burgeoning pride in being of Middle Eastern descent, I am forever grateful.
18.  Again, this spell he casts over anyone who sees his movies create the opportunity to learn more. When, in his movies, you see him performing some kind of prayer, a ritual, natural curiosity drives one to Google and you ultimately find out things that were so foreign to you before watching a movie. For example, in Agneepath, when Vijay’s character walks into the sea holding the figure of Ganesha, I had no idea the festival was called Ganesha Chaturthi, or what it all meant. But I now understand the festival and find it incredibly beautiful.
19.  Unexposed as I am to Indian literature, through Mr. Bachchan’s open and appropriate adoration for his father, I have discovered works like “Madhushalla” and although I lack the language skills to feel the full power of his poetry, I am mesmerized by the depth of the words that are so powerful, they do not lose themselves in translation.
20.  Being a connoisseur of movies, and shamelessly so, never before have movies ever made me reflect internally as movies like Inquilaab, which I consider highly underrated, Agneepath, Sharaabi and most prominently, Deewar. The list of movies that make me actually think is longer, these are just those that have permanently altered or allowed me to be aware of other ways of thinking. Again, the exposure of the shades of gray throughout life is a theme in the mentioned movies that I have taken to heart.
21.  In Do Aur Do Paanch, not only did I learn that 2+2 does not equal 5, I also found myself breathless with laughter and in awe of Mr. Bachchan’s ability to do lighthearted comedy and bring in such ferocious intensity.
22.  His Jan Jaani Janardhan’s selfless act and loyalty in the name of friendship and love, an inspiration for the viewer to model, this true friend.
23.  His fast talking Genius in Aladin never fails to make the viewer laugh, but Mr. Bachchan’s incomparable skills as an actor presents an interesting contrast in the darkness he lets slip through the character.
24.  Jai in Sholay a quiet, unassuming character who embodies friendship, gifting me my own best friend through our love for this incredible movie.
25.  The fact that after the Coolie accident, Amitabhji continued filming the movie from where he left off and continued the filming of the movie, only speaks to the character of the man, a lesson in perseverance for the world.
26.  Despite all his fame, all his accomplishments, and all the love that is displayed for him, Mr. Bachchan’s ability to keep his humility, to stay humbled and amazed by the attention and affection he receives, is a lesson for the world. Mr. Bachchan’s ability to stay humble is beautiful and, in turn, humbling for his fans.
27.  He has gifted the world with Abhisheck Bachchan whose beautiful and bubbly personality is truly a light in the world.
28.  Every time Amitji cries in any movie, the world stops and cries with him.
29.  In Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham, he develops and grows and admits his mistakes as a father, as an elder. This for me shows that no matter how long it takes, one must admit mistakes.
30.  He is equally terrifying and heartwarming in Aks.
31.  Vijay in Don makes me want to go to Banares and dance.
32.  Through my love for Amitji’s movies, I learned Banares is another word for Veranasi.
33.  He makes me wish and plan to visit Mumbai, Alahabad and the state of Rajasthan.
34.  Through Mard, the British Raj’s cruelty and their mistreatment of Indians, was put into perspective for me as a historian.
35.  Through all his writings, all his movies, all his actions, I have learned religious tolerance on a different level of understanding.
36.  Even after decades, his Vijju in Bhuddah is still the greatest, baddest mother lover in the world.
37.  He taught the world that doing the right thing isn’t always easy. But you must take the hard road to keep your honor.
38.  In his three character movie Mahaan, the distinction made between the father and two sons is admirable and not easy to pull off successfully as Amitji.
39.  Through admiration for him, I’ve become an expert on the geography of India. I know the states and their layouts as well as I know the United States.
40.  He made me fall in love with India, but through Inquilaab, I also know and understand the country’s not perfect, but that does not stop it from being beautiful Hindustan.
41.  His Shahenshah is a bigger badass then Batman.
42.  He displays respect and love for his fans, unlike any other celebrity I’ve heard about.
43.  Mr. Bachchan understands the principle of doing good deeds without having to make a public display of it.
44.  He makes being unusually tall with really long legs a good thing, something to be proud of!
45.   The way he runs is always a wonder to watch, makes the viewer want to stand up and run down the platform in slow motion. Truly a wonderful thing to behold.
46.  Despite being one of the most poetically inclined, philosophical, thoughtful writers I’ve had the privilege of reading, through his blog and tweets, yet his refusal to acknowledge this talent again highlights a humility I can only hope to someday achieve.
47.  His character from Department is one of the craziest badasses I’ve seen portrayed in cinema.
48.  Arjun Singh’s revelation into the English language and the weirdness of the language that becomes apparent to bi and multilinguals
49.  He is the only actor I can forgive for playing and pulling off characters named “Tiger”, because somehow, the name fits him and his bigger than life personality.
50.  His Babu character in Satta pe Satta scares the hell outta me, but the ending, Amitabhji never lets you hate the character for long. Instead, you find yourself cheering for him to find and complete his love story. The intensity of the character of Babu is to be commended.
51.  His ghost in Bhoothnath is amazingly complex and manages to go from a pretty terrifying ghost to a very sexy old man in one fell swoop.
52.  For gifting disillusioned fans like me with a movie like Khakee, because after watching so many movies, having been born in a movie going culture and movie loving world, it is hard to find a movie that keeps you on the edge of your seat. My goal of watching Mr. Bachchan’s every movie led me to watch Khakee and I found myself screaming and yelling at the television.
53.  In every movie, I learn something new about India, or Indian culture, mentality and philosophy, and sometimes I learn about the history of the country, as I did from Eklavya.
54.  For making movies like Nisabd that make you question your own thoughts about love and the various forms of it, and the procession of age and how to handle what life throws at you. The movie made me uncomfortable, because it was a story, a setting that was foreign and unacceptable in so many aspects of society. But through Amitji, I believe I have a new perspective on what love can and should mean.
55.  As stated, my goal of watching every movie that starred Amitaji has led me to wonderful, incredible stories like Shootout At Lokhandwalla, and through my tendency of wanting to always know the story behind the story, I once again became educated on Indian news and politics and how the system works. This cross-cultural training I have been receiving has, I believe, made me more perceptive.
56.  For simply staring in Sarkar and Sarkar Raj, and giving us Subhash Nagre.
57.  He played Debraj Sahi, and I believe that character from Black needs no further introduction, nor praise. Those who have seen this incredible piece of cinema will agree with me and lend their voices to my praise for Mr. Bachchan for Debraj Sahi.
58.  He created magic with Dharmendra in Sholay, Chupke Chupke and Ram Balra, giving us, the avid viewer, a friendship and brotherhood on screen that is incomparable, and leaves fans like myself wishing that Amitji and Dharamji had or will make more movies together.
59.  Thanks to the song “chal mere bhayii” from Naseeb, my sisters and or my best friend and I can sing it to each other to signal that we had a bad day, without having to put to words that we had a bad day. We instead have started singing.
60.  Every day, when I’m driving home from work, I can blast “Jumma Chumma” from Hum in the car and sing along to my heart’s content, and ignore the fact that I go to work Saturday mornings!
61.  His Badshah Khan from Khuda Gawah is one of the most classic lovers in any movie or story I’ve heard or seen.
62.  I can stutter “s-s-steady” and my family, or those who have seen Amar Akbar Anthony, will understand what I am talking about.
63.  He proved that politics is a game that has no room for decent, honorable men. It is no place for those who wish to enter the spectrum to do good for their country.
64.  Mr. Bachchan never seems to shy away from admitting mistakes and errors in public. What a beautiful thought that is, no?
65.  For giving a heart stopping performance in Kaala Patthar.
66.  For the diamond he played Lawaaris.
67.  Because his character in Khuud-Daar teaches honor and principles that we always forget in the modern world, where money is everything, and values have no weight.
68.  For asking for non-veg jokes in Bunty Aur Bubli.
69.  Because he is so talented, you forget he is the actor who is portraying Auro in Paa with such incredible ease and grace. He creates such an unforgettable character, again, stepping out of his own bounds, his own comfort zones to make his audience think and consider.


70. For simply being Amitabh Bachchan. And no one else.
I wish you a very happy birthday sir, and hope this labor of love has accomplished the purpose it was started for: With all that I have read in your blog, where you share your thoughts and feelings so freely and sweetly, I feel a constant turmoil in Your writing, as if You are seeking to discover why so many people seek Your attention, Your approval. 
People like myself for example. 
And I feel as if I have taken on the responsibility to attempt to explain our love for you. 
But I realize that I can only justify myself to You, and perhaps those rare few out there, members of Your E.F. perhaps or one of Your 3 million followers on Twitter, may be in my situation, and may share my seasonings for seeking Your attention so diligently and wholeheartedly.
I know I am lacking in words, in knowledge, in experience to completely convey why you are so important to so many people around the world. But I hope this list of reasons can give you a small idea. 
I am also poor, and too insignificant to believe I could physically present you a gift for your birthday. So I give you my love, my respect, and my hopes for everlasting happiness. And my prayer that you forever reside under the Grace of God. 
I ask your forgiveness in all that is lacking here. 
Love always,
 Ishtar...California se eka bagil larki
The crazy student in question

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Suhaag (1979)


            As I watch the movie Suhaag, from Manmohan Desi in 1979, I will write about how much I found this movie enjoyable, and why you should watch another of Desi’s great masala movies. This one has a star studded cast led by Amitabh Bachchan, Rekha, Shashi Kapoor and Parveen Babi.
            The story follows the classic masala outline of someone getting lost, and destiny bringing the lost back to the “found” bin. This lost and found story is different, however, in the songs and the style that it’s told in. Amitabh’s character is a common street thug, the lost twin of a brother, Shashi Kapoor, who’s become a police inspector that inspires salute from Mr. Bachchan’s character, Amit.
            This movie has two elements in it, that for me, make a Bachchan movie a great: he’s drunk most of the movie having taken up the habit when he was a young kid in the streets of the city, the other is he is romancing Rekha. I’m not going to go into the personal aspect of their relationship that has always been suspected. Looking at Mr. Bachchan and Rekha on the screen, especially during a particularly intense scenes like the few they have in this one, make their movies together that much more wonderful to watch. They’ve got a crackling chemistry on screen together, they just seem to click wonderfully.
            The movie is predictable, as always. But it’s simply a delight to watch. There’s so much entertainment, like Amit’s tendency of beating up his foes with his sandal, or the scene where Shashi Kapoor’s Kishan and Neerupa Roy’s character are both threatening him to take the opposite side of what the other is saying. The movie’s songs are wonderful to listen to as well. There's also a wonderful drunk scene with Amit sitting on top of the unfinished temple and crying of his inefficiencies in finishing the project for mother Durga. The more I think about it, the more I realize this movie has a lot of incredibly comedic moments in it. 
             Down side is Kader Khan is one of the bad guys (of course!) but Amjad Khan as the villain, makes the bad guys bearable. 
            The most gut wrenching scene just happens to be the song is where Amit is trying to stop drinking and he begs Rekha’s character, a courtesan, to help him get through his first night of sobriety. One of the funnier sings also happens to be a song with the four leading characters dancing around to convince Kishan to love Babi’s character.
            All in all a good movie to watch for entertainment. It’s a ride where you know it’ll end at a certain point, but the ride is still worth it. Mr. Bachchan is endearing in his role as Amit, trying to do right by everyone while trying to build the Goddess Durga a temple and over coming his own demons. 

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Coolie (1983)


            I’ve been meaning to write a review of this movie these past few days, but somehow, I kept deterring myself from it. For reasons unknown to me, or perhaps, for reasons consciously ignored by me, I have seemingly avoided the movie by focusing on the movies that surrounded it, or mentioning incidents that were a direct result of this infamous movie. But! It seems that fate has brought you, my sparse readers, and I to this day, August 2nd, to speak of this movie.
            1983’s Coolie, directed by Manmohan Desi, starring Amitabh Bachchan, Waheeda Rehma and Rishi Kapoor. I think anyone who is at all familiar with Mr. Bachchan knows and understands the significance of this particular Manmohan Desi masterpiece.
            The lore that surrounds this movie has to be addressed before I can get to the movie, plot and music itself. Mr. Bachchan was very seriously injured during the shooting of this movie. An accident occurred during one of the fight scenes, a misplaced punch that, as far as I’ve been able to gather, punctured Mr. Bachchan’s stomach, causing long-lasting internal damage, and immediate danger. He was rushed to the hospital that night, with very little hope being given to anyone about his survival. I remember reading somewhere, perhaps on Mr. Bachchan’s own blog about the incident, he had clinically died for a few moments. And when the doctors had given up hope, Mrs. Bachchan had noticed his toes had moved. Mr. Bachchan spent six months in the hospital due to this accident, with fans from all over India and the world praying for him, and making pilgrimages to the hospital.
            He eventually made it back to the studios and picked up the movie where it had been left off, and the movie was completed and became a blockbuster. But the accident had long-lasting effects, its aftermath very recently having manifested itself, resulting in Mr. Bachchan being hospitalized recently. I don’t want to go into detail about the illness, I don’t want to speculate and I’m too scrupulous to state something without citing my information. There have been better writers, more informed and better equipped writers who have reported on this incident. In fact, Mr. Bachchan was kind enough to write about the Coolie accident on his blog. Here is the link to the day he wrote about the accident: http://srbachchan.tumblr.com/post/25089103363
            I write about the movie, about the accident in this movie as a fan of Mr. Bachchan. I was born in 1990 (the day Agneepath was released in fact) in a country not too far away from India. When the country of India was in a state of prayer for Mr. Bachchan, I wasn’t even an idea in my parents plans for the future. So I can’t say I was affected, I can’t say I prayed for him like the thousands that had gathered outside Breech Candy Hospital in Mumbai. I can, however, say that as a fan in 2012, slowly discovering the golden movies throughout Mr. Bachchan’s expansive career, Coolie always sends chills down my spine. In respect to the incident, the scene where Mr. Bachchan is injured in the movie is paused, and script appears on the screen in Hindi, Urdu and English, stating “"This is the shot in which AMITABH BACHCHAN was seriously injured". 
            Now you all have gotten to know me.
            You know that before watching any movie, I read up on it. I read the plot overviews, I go on imdb.com and read the “did you knows” that include trivia. When I read about the incident, around the time that news was pouring out through Mr. Bachchan’s own twitter and blog about his hospitalization and abdominal surgery, I became terrified of watching this movie that almost deprived me of Mr. Bachchan. I would be born seven years after the accident, yet I always feel chilled at the “what ifs” that flow through my mind, thoughts I dare not utter or write.
            But I finally got over it. Finally found an immaculate copy of Coolie with English subtitles and settled down to watch it with dread in my heart.
            And when I found myself laughing, found myself downloading the songs on to my ipod, found myself texting my sister and telling her “you need to see this movie, it’s awesome!”, it’s suffice to say I was shocked. I watched Coolie expecting myself to hate it, to cringe the entire time and never want to watch it again for fear of that scene, and found myself wanting to watch the movie again.
            And watching the scene of the accident with thoughts that God really was watching over Mr. Bachchan that day…perhaps in a sense, God was watching over every Bachchan fan in the universe.
            The plot focuses around the character of Iqbal, a porter, who’s parents were ripped away from him due to the actions of a cruelly evil man named Zafar Khan (fittingly portrayed by the equally evil Kader Khan). The story is about Iqbal seeking justice for the porters, demanding fair treatment by the railway company, and praying for the mother who’s memory has been erased from the traumatic events that separated her from her husband and son. It’s a masterpiece Manmohan Desi “lost and found” story. Rishi Kapoor, one of my favorite actors to watch, has a very interesting part in this movie as a drunkard newspaper man, who befriends Iqbal.
            I love any movie that has songs that end up on my iPod, and this movie had plenty of songs for me to love and dance to. The best being Iqbal (Mr. Bachchan) and Sunny’s (Mr. Kapoor) “lumbuji tinguji” (sung by Shabbir Kumar and Shailender Singh) where they fight over who gets the reward for returning a runaway girl to her colorful father (Mukri). I’m 6’1, my sister who is like my best friend is 5’4. This song involves the two characters referring to each other as “tinguji” (shorty) and “lumbuji” (tall-y…basically). So, it’s become our theme now. Other wonderful songs like “Sari duniya ka bhoj hum uthate hain” where Iqbal sings of the life of a porter, sun by Shabbir Kumar. And the song “accident ho gaya”, sung by Shabbir Kumar and Asha Bhosle, which is either the perfect song for this movie considering what happened to Mr. Bachchan, or the worst song choice possible. Either way, I love the song.
            The amount of comedy in this movie is amazing as well, and unexpected as far as I was concerned the first time I found my courage and watched it. The cooking/radio scene, of course, is a classic that had me rolling on the floor laughing. Another comedic scene is one where the porters, in protest to their mistreatment, take over the boss’s house, claiming it as theirs until their housing is arranged properly. The entire scene is of Iqbal hilariously abusing the boss, while Sunny the reporter takes pictures and asks obnoxious questions. I laugh every time the boss Om Puri (Om Shivpuri) tells Sunny to “shut up”…it is a style with which I have taken to tell people to shut up. 
I think many people who love Mr. Bachchan consider August 2nd to be his second birthday. It is the day where God gave him back to us, a day that has become celebrated.
            In the scheme of things, I am nobody. Just a college student, working now, going through enough emotional turmoil to dedicate an entire summer to watching Mr. Bachchan’s movies. I have no money, no fame, no name. Just another faceless fan of Mr. Bachchan’s with a story to tell and nobody to read it.
            But I must say the following:
            Whenever I read Mr. Bachchan’s blog or tweets, I always hear his constant confusion, his inability to understand why so many people are vying for his attention on Twitter or through his blog. His confusion at this need for people to get his attention confuses me to a certain degree as well. So, as one of the fans who is shamelessly vying for Mr. Bachchan’s attentions, I have take it upon myself to attempt to explain why I am here.
            I speak for myself of course, but perhaps, someone out there shares my reasoning as well, maybe someone else out there has had a life experience similar to mine and found a distraction, and subsequently inspiration, through Mr. Amitabh Bachchan. I have faced death, I have faced grave illnesses, I have hidden truths to protect my loved ones and found myself rotting inside as a consequence. I have traveled long distances, down dark alleyways with no light at the end and so many snaking twists and turns that no cartographer in the world can map them. And I have done it all alone, for the sake of my family. But I lost myself in those winding, twisted, dark roads. One day I looked and my soul was gone, yet I breathed.
History nerd got excited at the symbolism of the hammer and sickle
            Then I saw Agneepath and learned that life was a path of fire that needed to be walked with a lion’s heart. I watched Khuda Gawah and learned that life was nothing without the honor of keeping ones promises. I loved Deewar and found myself burrowing deep into a soul I thought was forgotten for some answer to the questions the movie raised within me. I watched Sharaabi and learned that money was of no value.
            I read about the Coolie accident and watched Department, and found out that you can fight life, and win.
          
So Mr. Bachchan, that’s why I vie for your attention. It’s because through your movies, you’ve forced me to look for something, for someone, I had assumed I lost long ago in those dark dark alleyways.  
Love and respect,
Ishtar